Tuesday, 30 January 2018

17 18

super lengthy post ahead!



Turtle neck // H&M
Shirt // Vintage
Formal joggers // George
Ankle boots // Primark (I think. idk lol)


So 2017 was my worst year yet. I wont really get into too much details but it was honestly the worst.

When I started first year of university in 2016, I was doing really good to be honest but from December 2016 to April 2017, my studies went down hill and they went down hill because there was a lot of things going on at home. I lived on campus, which meant that everything that happened at home, I wouldn't know unless somebody at home called me.OOH, the cherry on the cake, on top of everything going on at home, my grandmother passes away. My grandmother was ill but I honestly didn't expect for her to die. Plus I found out about her death in the worst way. My brother had Whatsapp'd me saying "Grandma just died". I was in my uni accommodation by my self, I started crying so hard that I even vomited. Another death that hurt me was Kim Jonghyun from SHINee. You guys, SHINee was one of the first K-pop groups that I got into. Even though I am no longer interested in K-pop ( I never really was. My friends forced me. I only liked a few groups, not even gonna lie), his death really hit home. Rest in Peace.

 Fast forward to summer, I move back home and as the days was going by, the situation kept getting worse. As the situation was getting worse, I had also lost my faith and my beliefs.

The situation was honestly depressing me, so it resulted me to binge eating. I would over eat during the summer to suppress my feelings. I didn't go out or work in the summer either which meant that I put on soooooooo much weight guys. I haven't weight my self on a scale because I am scared to see the numbers but I already know that I have gained a lot of weight because not only can I see it. I can feel it and its the worse ever. I have also been dealing with low confidence since I put on weight in the summer. It's driving me crazy. I have dealt with body confidence issues when I was 14, so the one that I am currently dealing with isn't as bad.

My uni work in 2017 was the worst too. This is second year now and I was having problems with my accommodation ( I still am) , I couldn't send my assignment on time because of technical difficulties, I missed my group presentation due to snow and my first term grades are honestly a hot mess. Nothing was working in my favour at all. I know I may sound like a brat from that statement but honestly, nothing, AT ALL was going in my favour. 2018 comes and I am still dealing with last years problems. As soon as I stepped into 2018, I got ill. I have been ill for the past 2 weeks and a week before me being ill, I was in a slump. Also, I have no wifi at home, so I am currently house hopping lmao.

Now that I have briefly told you the bad things that happened to me, I will bullet point you guys the good things that had happened in my life in 2017  and earlier on this month( if I can remember).

2017/18

  • I met some very good people that are now my close friends, shout out to you guys (you guys know who you are.)
  • my uncle got engaged
  • Even though I did horrible in 1st year uni, I managed to get into 2nd year
  • I got baptised
  • I got a new camera
  • I started my room makeover
  • despite my beloved grandma passing away, everyone else in my family is okay & alive
  • I am still breathing
  • I am working on my mental health 
  • trying to stop being a pessimist 

This post is very different from what I usually post and that is because I wanted to be more "open" about myself and even though this post is lowkey, high key a rant, I hope that it helps someone out there reading this. 

"There is always a light at the end of the tunnel so please, keep on riding it. While you are at it, enjoy the ride. Enjoy it so that when you get off of the ride, you can look back and have wonderful, bittersweet memories of that ride. Enjoy it while you can. " - A horrible nonsensical cringy but true quote by me


Anyways, In  Jesus name, February & onward will be my month.  I will work really hard to make this year a good year. Not just for me but for everyone else.

I know this post is super late, but I hope you liked it & I will see you in my next post, goodbye!

(PS, my spelling and grammar is trash I know. I didn't even get time to proof read this. Okay, I'm going now)


Steffi

xxx

Tuesday, 2 January 2018

Favourite outfits of 2017!

Hello everybody, happy new year!
2017 was a horrible year for me & in general too but like I said in my previous post, that is another post for another day lol. This year, I didn't take a lot of outfit pictures nor did I blog much so I only have about 3 outfits that were my favourite in 2017. 

I have the links for the outfits attached to the photos Please leave a comment and tell me which 2017 look was your favourite , thank you!

  
 Thank you for reading my blog & thank you for supporting me in 2017, I will see you in my next post. Good bye!
Steffi 

xxx

NYE outfit


 Kimono blazer // Aliexpress
Culottes // Aliexpress
Jewellery set // QUIZ (similar here
Heeled boots // Boohoo (similar here)



Hello everybody, & welcome back to my blog!

I hope you guys had a wonderful New years eve and a wonderful new years day. More blog posts will be up this year as 2017 was just a hot mess for me in every aspect lol but we are not going to talk about 2017 in this post. That is another post for another day. Stay tuned for that and the other posts that I will be publishing on this blog.

So, on the 31st of December I didn't go to any parties (I went to church instead lol) but this outfit is something I would have worn if I did. It's too cold for short sleeved stuff and sequins on NYE is getting boring and very cliche ( I am getting tired of seeing sequins and glitter every 31st of December, no offence) . I actually wore this outfit to a wedding that I went to in August because it is kind of our family tradition to go and spend our new years eve at church, but if it wasn't our tradition, I would have definitely worn this outfit to an end of the year party.

But yeah, I hope everyone had an amazing 2017 & I wish everyone an even better 2018. Thank you for reading my blog & thank you for supporting me in 2017, I will see you in my next post. Good bye!

Steffi 


xxx

Sunday, 10 December 2017

JPEG not RAW


 Long sleeve tshirt // Primark similar (here)
Necklaces Primark ( similar here)
Tailored jogger trousers // Boohoo
Puffer jacket // Aliexpress
Trainers// Vans - Sk8 Hi from Schuh



 Hi guys,

Welcome back to my blog. I've noticed that all of my blog posts always start of with an apology for being MIA, but yeah lol. I am sorry.

This background and outfit go together so well. It is probably one of my favourite pictures, but too bad. I accidentally shot this in JPEG and not raw. It's making these picture look like I took it with my phone or something and I really dislike that. But what can I do lol? I'm too busy and too lazy to re-shoot an outfit, plus my personal photographer who I have taught quite well (my little brother), is very impatient and only likes taking pictures of me for personal gain ( personal gain as in a little photo-shoot with the boys in return) lol.

But anyways, enough with the random story\rant lol. So winter is coming and its coming really hard. It's bloody freezing lately but with this puffer jacket, Its kind of impossible to freeze lol. Its very padded, the hood is huge, it has a batwing and I like the crop/ cut of the jacket. The only downside is that it is a quarter sleeved jacket instead of having full sleeves. I've worn it so much that it has makeup and dye stains all over it, and so I've ordered another one as it it only £19.50
I wore these really nice boohoo jogger trousers with a simple, plain t shirt that I had bought from the Men's section of Primark and matched it with my very uncomfortable Sk8 Hi Vans.
(excuse the wig, it was a hot.mess.com)

Thank you very much for reading this post, & I will see you in the next one. Bye!


Steffi

xxx

Sunday, 5 November 2017

Room decor haul

Hello everybody, welcome back to my blog!

It's been such a long time since I've done a haul but to get back into it, I will do a home wear haul.

So many things have happened to me lately but I will probably talk about that in my other post because this post is going to be only about room decor/ home wear. This time last year I told you guys that me and my siblings swapped rooms before I left for uni. I wanted to make this room different from the last one.

I was supposed to have a room tour video or picture post (which ever you guys want, or both maybe?) but I can't as my room is not fully done yet. I still need new floors, new curtains, some shelves, paint my doors, more decorative pieces need to be purchased and also, some corners of my room are not fully painted but so far, so good. 

But for now, please enjoy these few decorative pieces that I bought for my room.

                                                                                                                                                                   

   1. Ugly ass plant that I really regret spending my money on. Oh btw, it's from Primark. This faux plant looks very faux & I regret spending my £5 on this lol. It doesn't look that bad in this angle but trust me, in real life it is (you can also see the Styrofoam that holds the flowers in place, ew) . Once I buy my shelve, I will put it on there but if I am still not feeling it, then I will have to give it to my brother who is also currently redecorating. I should have listened to my mum when she told me not to buy this. Never buy decorations when you don't have a concept for your room guys!


   2.  High pile rug // IKEA. I absolutely love this rug, It brings my room together and grey is also               my accent colour for my room. The rug was £10. (the rings do not come included)


3. Candles // Primark. I have never in my life, been into candles until I bought these two candles from Primark. I burn candles whenever I come back straight from uni. I bought the sea salt & lavender one only because of the tin/ packaging, so that I can put my rings in them. If it was not for the packaging, I would have never bought it because I hate the smell of lavender. It smells like old people and toilet stuff  *shrugs shoulders*.  The other one (the white marble candle) I bought because it looks and smells nice, I forgot what the scent was. I think it was sandalwood with something, not sure what it was.  If I finish the wax for the white candle, should I use the candle holder for another faux plant or not? because I was planning to not buy anymore faux plants and succulents for my room.


4. Another faux plant // Primark. Guys, look how beautiful and real this plant looks. The stones, the plant pot, everything is perfect. I absolutely love this. Now, this was worth the £5. This plant makes the other one look really cheap and ugly. 


    5. Monstera leaf (faux) // IKEA. I feel like you guys got the picture from when I included a lot of                     rooms that had monstera leaves on this blog post, I am so obsessed with them lol, I actually bought two. £3.50 for one leaf, I didn't mind paying, because to me they look real. 
           

6. Vase // IKEA. I love the colour, the height and most importantly, its abnormal shape. It was originally £15, then it went down to £8 and then I got it at £4. Bargain!







I really hope that you enjoyed this post, & I will see you in my next one. Bye!

Steffi

xxx

Thursday, 12 October 2017

Faux pas!




 Cream knitted jumper // ? (similar here, here & here)
Mom jeans // Primark/ DIY (similar here & here here)
Necklaces // Primark (similar here)
faux fur bag // Everything5pounds 
Faux fur slides // Primark (similar here here)

Hello guys, welcome back to my blog!

So, second year of uni has just started and I have been quiet busy with that. I was ready for second year during the summer but now that I've started, I'm kind of scared lol. All of my lecturers are not failing to state that second year is going to be extra hard and by them saying that, it's making me feel very uneasy and nervous lol. Kinda feel like giving up. kinda feel like pushing through and getting good grades this year too. Week 1 of uni was more of an introduction while week 2 is already lowkey serious lol. I just had my 9am lecture and now, I am currently on my one hour break, contemplating life. Wish me luck on my university career lol.

Thank you for reading this post, and I will see you in my next one. Bye!

Steffi

xxx

Wednesday, 27 September 2017

How can somebody be so rude?!




Hi guys, welcome back to my blog!

This blog post is going to be a mini story/rant about something that happened to me a few days ago. So, on the 23rd of September, Me, my mother, uncle and auntie took a trip to Birmingham. I had a wonderful day. We shopped, we explored and we did so many other fun things until this happened...

So, what had happened was that I was throwing some litter in the bin. I was in the bin zone (bin zone is a little square/ rectangle marking around the bin, allowing anybody that wants to throw litter in the bin to be out of other people's way and to only be in that zone) and this random, rude, uneducated, imbecile decided to hold onto my jacket and then he DRAGGED me OUT of the bin area with force(mind you, HIS foot was half in the bin zone). Because his foot and a little bit of his body was half in the bin zone, when he dragged me out of there, I ended up landing fully in front of him. So now that I am in front of him, He then decided to take both of his filthy hands to then PUSH ME out of the way. After that, he decides to take two steps away from me just to mumble something rude under his breath & after he mumbled under his breath, he starts speaking out loud and he says "MOVE OUT THE FUCKING WAY, CAN YOU? YOU'RE IN MY FUCKING WAY"

I got disrespected 4 times by him in the space of 5 minutes.


  1. HE DRAGGED ME OUT OF THE BIN AREA WITH SO MUCH AGGRESSION
  2. HE THEN USES HIS HANDS TO PUSH ME OUT OF THE WAY
  3. MUMBLES SOMETHING RUDE & OFFENSIVE ABOUT ME UNDER HIS BREATH
  4. HE THEN STARTS TO SPEAK LOUDLY AND SAYS "MOVE OUT THE FUCKING WAY, CAN YOU? YOU'RE IN MY FUCKING WAY"


How rude. I never felt so violated in my life. This man really dragged me as if I was a bloody 5p bag. I honestly was so flabbergasted at the whole situation, I needed to come back to earth because that was some uncultivated behaviour. I honestly wanted to cuss him out ( I did, but in my head) but I didn't because I would have just looked stupid. as he said all of those things to me, he was walking really fast (it just shows how much he isn't about that life). Birmingham city centre on an afternoon / evening is always so packed, so if I decided to shout curse words, anybody could have thought that I was directing those words to them or I would have just looked crazy lol. He probably wouldn't have heard them either. I honestly wanted to throw hands....... but I didn't lol. He honestly ruined my day, it wasn't even funny. Like, I was angry throughout my whole train journey.

But yeah, comment down below and tell me how you would have handled this situation.


thanks for reading & I will see you in my next post. Bye!

Steffi

xxx


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